Sunday, September 23, 2007

For Nurin Jazlin the dear departed and Madeleine McCanns of the world

Undoubtedly, there are more children out there who do not have the privilege of Madeleine McCann's white skin to get coverage, but I suppose its enough that she is among many, a face of all the children in the world who have been maimed for no reason. Nurin Jazlin, the Malay world should mourn because she, among many, are victims of her own race, which I suspect, namely because of the large number of sexual crimes that pervade in neighbouring Malaysia are all perpetrated by malays. I am not being racist, I myself, am Malay and sadly I don't understand why Malays are the most susceptible to such actions of sexual crimes. I am thinking and deep down I have no answer, in probability it could lie amongst all us Malays, probably, it lies in the fact that we are so either exceedingly foolish or just slowly urbanizing ourselves. I am ashamed, but the truth remains that my race, among many,is not the only who perpetrate crimes that murder innocent children. Historically, trained warrior tribes such as the Gurkha has been known to in missions in the past to throw babies and children in the air and immediately spear them. In literature concerning the second world war the Chinese feeling burdened by female children abandon them as they began to be eaten by dogs or raped by Japanese soldiers to death.In Thailand, there is a market for babies to be used as sexual objects for a price. Humans in all essence or thoughtless, nameless, faceless creatures continuously only as objects for sex by men. Are the men actual monsters or are they themselves equally victims, they too are faceless, nameless and thoughtless for in the act of committing the devious crimes they themselves have turned into hideous monsters unrecognized as humans in all essence. And those whom they force to become faceless and nameless. The worst part of this agenda is that only a handful few find it shocking unbelievably shocking and so many eventually shrug it as a horror and continue with their own lives. All voices have drowned out, and although this might seem astonishingly bleak but they remain the true and truthful crux of the embodiment of the human spirit. If the Abrahamic faiths were true, and if human suffering on earth was reversible, the only reason why in the world that I would hold true to religion and the afterlife is only the solace that if every one of the children who are nameless and faceless could receive justice then when the world has gone. I cannot and simply cannot accept atheism for this reason alone. That the thought that if atheism is true then those babies and children who are nameless and faceless will forever be nameless and faceless and forever be victims and those who victimized them forever never punished even in death, if death was all the same. Darwin, can you answer me? I am crushed by the thought of evolution when in all truth I have once and myself denounced all religion and I find myself here and again in the doorstep of religion despite its misgivings and find in the light of lights and truths that there at least exist a coherence and understanding of a world I cannot reach here. And as Siddhartha Gautama has mentioned that existence is suffering and until the light reaches Nirvana. Why I reject Buddhism is because I cannot in my sanest head believe that those children deserve bad karma because of their previous lives. Forgive me in this solace because I myself feel the dread and the pain.

Saturday, September 1, 2007


Incidentally, (duh), the highest rates of female infanticide occur in India and China where they are both patrilineal and patriarchal within their social and family structure, coincidentally, they are also both the highest producers of human beings in the world. The world is swarmed by Chinese and Indian immigrants, brought by white slave traders or in search of a better world. Abortion on the other hand, is the right for every female to decide whether they want the child or not, but how far and what limit should abortion be allowed? And when limitations exist for abortions the problem arises to the fact that the rich will get away aborting their female children while the poor will be prosecuted for aborting their children. Coming from a family where abortion is okay (my mother had one after me), prior to unplanned pregnancies I have also considered abortion in every stratum, don't mistake me, I am not like other women, I don't care if it stretches me to oblivion I love children very very much, but what I am very much concerned about is my family, who dislikes children. But as the bad sheep I had all three of my children anyway, thank you, and the comments and criticisms that come alongside it, please, if you're not paying for my kids' welfare so why don't you just fuck off. Where was I? Oh, yes, the problem with India is that religious rites are performed by a male heir, unlike some cultures that there needs to be a Male Heir certain mechanisms has been created to allow the religious rites to be performed, for example, Ghost Marriages, Woman-Woman marriage (not a lesbian marriage), and Adoption. But for a high culture civilization such as India I am troubled that they did not have such mechanisms to counteract the problem of excessive patriarchy and gender infanticide. The same also goes for China where female children are abandoned. Why is it in such and such societies excessive infanticide exists? Can anyone consider? Where is the border between pro-choice and crazed gender infanticide? It seems that feminism is getting a bite in the ass, don't get me wrong, Im a feminist at heart but the problem remains the same, in the salvaging way to fight off being controlled from abortion we in return are being set back by patriarchy who has used our means of controlling our bodies. One step forward, is a million steps back. Oh btw Id like to add, a doctor who read my old blog said I had anger issues, and he said that there are other people who are worst off than me. I don't get it, I'm talking about other people aren't I? I'm angry for other people, and at least I am blogging here so people can understand the issues that are happening in the world.